Emergency Room

I titled this emergency room because it’s a place I know all too well. I remember telling my mom I needed to go to the hospital in the middle of the night. That’s when my battle and long journeys of going to the hospital began. My mother came to see me a lot and for a second I thought she may actually be sorry for kicking me out all the times she did but all the stress from having gone home to home had took its toll on me. My boyfriend had took his toll on me and the feeling that no one cared was there especially from my family they wouldn’t see me in the hospital. They wanted me to lose my life and they were the worst people in my life. I learned from all that and God separated me from them. I became stronger and I am grateful. My family made me a fighter believe it or not. So thanks!



My stepdads name is Irwin Morriss Thames. It really shocked me and took me by surprise that someone in my family had such a strong name referring to my mission in life. I needed that name in a way for my safety and well being. Irwin is my stepdad and I miss him dearly. He was for me. I thought he was so handsome and so black. I remember my first boyfriend meeting him for a brief second. Ironically he is the only person in my family I really miss. He was in the AirForce and I remember all of our happy memories when I was a youth. Life has changed drastically for all of us in my family but I hope they never forget when we were young because they need to remember Me. IRWIN this is for you Happy Mothers Day! I miss your smile I miss your face. No one can ever take your place.

Nowhere to Go

When I was young and seeing  my boyfriend my mother didn’t approve of it  and I hated her for that. I was in highschool and of course she couldn’t stop me cause I had my own mind and me and her never got along. She would kick me out and I would go from house to house and family member to family member. Tell me what kind of mother kicks her daughter out when she is in highschool? I should’ve known that these were signs that my mother didn’t care about me that I had to look to God for my care and let her go. Also  this was probably the only way because God wanted me to come to him. There were so many signs in my life that I should stand against my mother and so I’m not in her care anymore but I still remember all the lessons being dealt with her taught me. I mean what kind of a mother kicks out her daughter who she knows has believed in God all her life. There is one thing I also have to say. She got dealt me too a rebellious daughter.  All I have to say is Bye MOM!